Today was my first official day as a full time employee with BuzzFeed.
When I was growing up, I always imagined what it would be like to find my career…to find my path. I’m sure we all ponder it. Having to work in life is inevitable and we all just hope we can find something that doesn’t make us completely freaking miserable.
And then the time came. College was over and I was supposed to figure out my life. I thought I had. I was wrong.
About six months after my college graduation I was ready to admit defeat. I was miserable. And I honestly didn’t have much of a reason to be. I felt so incredibly trapped. I was trapped in a never ending work cycle and I saw no way out. I didn’t feel like I was supposed to. I was supposed to be content working. I wasn’t supposed to get excited about my job, I mean it’s a JOB.
I guess you could say I am pretty impatient. I stopped believing that I could have a job that didn’t feel like a freaking prison sentence. I couldn’t imagine looking forward to work every day. I thought that most of my fulfillment in life would have to come from activities outside of work.
I figured, “Hey, I just gotta get through the work weeks.” Then I realized how insane that was.
How freaking miserable. We spend over half of our lives working. Why the BLOODY HELL would this be something that you don’t enjoy?
That’s insane, right? Especially in this day of age. The world is at our fingertips. We just have to reach out and grasp it.
Maybe I didn’t know where I was heading six months ago, I just knew I had to get out. People didn’t always support me or believe in me. But it didn’t take me long to realize that the only way I could be happy was to stop listening to others.
For some reason people get this idea in their heads that if you make a decision, it’s permanent. If you mess it up, there’s no fixing it. So what if I had moved to LA for a job and ended up not getting it? Life would still go on. It wouldn’t stop.
No decision you make is permanent. You know? We don’t have a crystal ball to tell us exactly what will happen. We just have to take the chance and do everything we can to make sure it works out. And if it doesn’t? We discover a new path.
The thing is, if you’re thinking about pursuing your dream or moving someplace just because you want to- you need to do it.
Honestly, just do it. The only person really stopping you is YOU.
You can argue with me all day long about circumstances and timing but at the end of the day, you’ll still be the one who is stuck.
I’ve learned that people who are too afraid to follow their own dreams will always find a way to discourage you from following yours.
Stop letting them.