I’m 22 and a woman and I have a lot of damn feelings. Like, so many feelings. So much so that I could wake up perfectly euphoric one morning and be in tears by lunchtime. I am an emotive person. I wear my heart on my sleeve and say what is on my mind without always filtering it beforehand.
Each of us handle feelings and emotions differently. Some of us bury our feelings deep inside daring them to try and escape someday. While others are forced to feel our emotions as they come in waves and ride them out trying to stay afloat.
I can’t always control what upsets me just like I can’t control when the sun rises. It just does.
I’m not sorry.
I’m tired of being questioned for my emotions. I’m tired of feeling as if I have to defend all of my emotional reactions. I’m tired of feeling as if I’m constantly explaining why I am or am not upset. But mostly, I’m tired of feeling like my mindsets aren’t justifiable to others.
We shouldn’t have to feel pressure to react a certain way based on other’s preferences.
Asking me to curb my feelings is like asking me to change a part of me. My emotions are my very core. Whether I’m sad, mad, disappointed, ecstatic, or nostalgic…it’s all me.
I may not always react in a positive way, and I may not always handle situations to the best of my ability…but at least I’m always true to myself in the moment.
At least I can acknowledge the deepest, darkest parts of me and accept them as they come.
I’m never going to apologize for showing that I care or saying exactly how I feel.
At the end of the day, I have to live with myself. And I want to know the person I’m living with.
Don’t ever let someone tell you that your feelings are invalid…and don’t ever be afraid to be exactly who you are.