You’ve been hurt in the past. People that you thought would always be a part of your life suddenly aren’t anymore and that feeling tears you apart. It leaves you a little wounded. Instead of telling people how you feel, putting yourself out there, talking through it- you just push them away. You pretend like you don’t care even though the simple idea of no longer having them be a part of your life makes you feel sick.
You constantly push people away with the small hope in the back of your mind that they will fight back. That they will break through this ridiculous wall and prove to you that they want to be a part of your life. But they don’t. They get tired of being pushed away and the lack of communication on your end may push them out of your life indefinitely.
It took me a long time, and I’m still learning to this day, that pushing people away doesn’t hurt other people. At the end of the day, the only person I am hurting is myself.
It’s time to take a step back and realize that as humans, we are bound to make mistakes. It’s like in our genes.
We mess up, all the time. We say things we don’t mean, things we say come out wrong, we make bad decisions sometimes, and we may not know what to do to repair our choices.
So YOU must realize that no one is perfect and people make mistakes…you make mistakes, he makes mistakes, she makes mistakes…
Do not judge current relationships in your life on the wrongdoings of those before.
Tell people how you feel, apologize when you have done something wrong, and put yourself out there because at the end of the day- at least you can say you made an effort. You tried. And if it still doesn’t work out after that, you have no regrets.
Stop pushing people away and allow people into your life. Into your heart. There is a chance that you might get hurt again… but there’s also a chance that you won’t.